Hello guys! Just want dot know if any of you have ever dealt with this before... So I am in a relationship with a guy, and I find myself sometimes in the middle of a conflict between my top side and my bottom side... If someone asks me what I am I'd say versatile, but in my mind I asociate being bottom as something I crave for, or something that's better. If I am ever in a situation when I would me more top I sometimes get very gelous of my partener. It doesn't help that he is smaller and more delicate than I am... I just feel like I am really anxious and gelous as a top because mabye I crave the same same attention that he recemiecers from me. I've started expressing my feelings better and stopped waiting for him to give me that attention that I now ask for. It has helped me a lot. How could I fix this, or how could I accept that being top is also OK?
I think many people find they are not always experiencing what is ideal for them sexually in a relationship. Sometimes you can get used to something in time and learn to enjoy it. Other times it becomes an ongoing issue which eventually causes separation.
I think if you can talk with your partner about it without anyone getting upset, that would be your very best option. May be you can come to some arrangement that suits you both well. All of us come to relationships with presuppositions - thoughts and feelings that developed previous to the relationship. Often, the reality doesn't match those expectations or desires but a new reality takes over and can be just as good as the expectations you had to drop.
Being top is definitely okay but if you crave being a bottom then you would do well to ask your partner to have that from time to time. If they are not able or unwilling, there is not really much you can do. If they love you and are able, they will do it for you.
Just my thoughts.
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